Action to Reaction

If I was to get philosophical for a moment, would you bare with me? I am in an odd place today. Almost as if I were outside, looking in on myself and, well life, in general. I wonder what makes people do the things that they do. Obviously, and all you psych majors out there can correct me if I have forgotten some key element here, everything the we do is seeking a reaction of some sort. Whether good or bad, still we are seeking a reaction. The way that we dress, speak, look at others, etc. All seeking reactions. Sometimes we do things just to annoy or anger someone, we even seek revenge in certain situations.

Reactions… so what reactions am I seeking? I want my children to become strong Christian adults, with will to succeed. I want my dog to be bigger and stronger than all the others on the block. I want my car to smell like Blunt Power every day of the week. www.bluntpower.com, for all those curious. When I get dressed each day, I am seeking the reaction of “damn that is one tough bitch”! I suppose that if I had to make a list of wants and needs and then balance them with my actions, I would find that I am focused on myself most often. I like to be the center of attention. I enjoy competition with other females. I assume that stems from my Beauty Queen days, but I thrive on it, none the less.

But that’s all small scale. What about the big picture? What are my large ticket ‘items of life’? I am doing this on the fly, but let me try to wrap my mind around this:

Copper’s List of “Life Items Needed”

A house of my own, in my name only, using only my credit. DONE
A job where I feel valued and the compensation is enough to get me out of this living month to month rut. IN PROGRESS
A car that does not screech when I start it in cold weather and the A/C works. Guess this one will have to wait, due to the fulfillment of #1. NOT YET
A man who will respect me for who I am and love me, including all of my flaws, unconditionally. This man will also have to have an unfaltering commitment to me, and me only. This is probably the most far fetched item on the list, due to the fact that I am unsure that this person even exists. I suppose that it is possible, I may have even met this person on the street and maybe spoken a kind word or friendly hello. But how do I ever find my way back to him? This one will have to be left up to God to orchestrate. Heaven knows I’ve had no luck on my own! NOT YET/(even possible?)
My children to not deposit me in a Nursing Home in my old age. I am attempting to combat this one by giving them all the love, attention and affection as possible, in hopes that I will receive the same care when Alzheimer’s kicks in. IN PROGRESS

So are my actions actually seeking my desired reactions? Or am I completely misguiding myself? I believe I am headed somewhere, I just have no idea where. Guess we’ll find out together.

The reply to my resignation

I want everyone to know that I did decide to go the professional route with my resignation letter. Basically it says this:

XXXX,

I apologize for the informal nature of this, but I felt it was the best way to reach you. I am submitting my resignation from XXXXXX. I feel that it is best for everyone involved and I have accepted a position elsewhere. Please find attached a copy of my actual resignation letter. I will also place resignations from each of the advisory boards in your box. I will be active here until March 26th. I will accept my PDO time paid out and added to my final payroll check.

I will be more than happy to assist you in re-assignment of my duties, if requested. I wish you many blessings and prosperity in the future.

Copper Stiletto

Her response was:

No Problem.

Nothing less nothing more!

I was stunned to say the least. This was Friday afternoon. I had Tracie to check my email on Saturday and was rewarded with this. But here is the BEST PART:

I get here and am told that I need not work out my notice. Leave at the end of the day today and do not return. Clean out your desk, get your shit and get out. This don't really bother me except for two issues:

1. I am missing a weeks worth of pay. This equals bills being pressed to hard dates. I now must have a rummage/garage sale.

2. I will be away from a wireless "hot spot" for approximately 2 weeks. I may be able to squeeze a few posts in here and there, but PLEASE DON"T FORGET ABOUT ME while I am gone.

I don't want to loose my readers, because I will be back.

More later today, but "forget me not"

Pucker up and...

I have given her ample opportunity to express her sincere apology for all the shit that I have put up with from her daughter, or better yet make Lil' heifer apologize herself! But that isn't gonna happen.

I am debating on sending the original draft of my resignation letter or revising it to continue the professional aura that I try to carry.

I can see benefits to both avenues. But I fear that if I take the path of least conflict, I will look back upon it and wish I had taken my moment of "evil satisfaction" in pissing her off! I was followed today, by the way, by the father (guess this really is a family affair)

to quote eminem "crazy/insane or insane/crazy"

either way, they can KISS MY ASS!!

Bad Moon Rising

Yesterday the shit hit the fan.

Here are the highlights.

Tracie nearly beat the daylights out of "Lil Heifer"

Lil' Heifer was kicked out and her desk cleaned out

Many people shouted

The intended people cried

I was given the opportunity to express to Lil' Heifer EXACTLY what was on my mind

She admitted "watch-dogging" me and reporting insignificant things to her mommy

When prompted, she could give no reason why.

Now the outcome:

I have YET to receive an apology from 'the boss' for her and her daughter's actions, but have received word that she "desperately wants me to stay with the company" I feel that if she wants me that badly, she should feel compelled to contact me in some way. She has my mobile, both e-mails, the office number~everything that she would need to reach me. But still nothing. Hell, she could even text message me for all I care.

BUT I WILL NOT ACCEPT A FORCED APPOLOGY!!

I have received an offer from another corporation in this area that is almost too good to pass up.

She has till the end of business today to approach me in some way, or I will get ghost on her ass real quick!

Stay tuned for updates

Do you think she would be mad?

Dear XX XXXX:
Please accept my resignation as Director of Business Development and Quality Coordinator, effective Monday, March 26th.

I feel very fortunate to have been associated with XXXXXX for the last year. My experiences and training have been invaluable, and I leave with many pleasant memories of Tracie, Deborah, Bonita and Tara. I also have take with me, many nightmares and headaches, most of which are attributed to the introduction of your daughter into the office dynamic.

For many months, we labored as a team to get XX operational while maintaining the integrity of XXX. The team effort worked beautifully. I feel that we made many accomplishments and were working towards excellence. I feel that my personal accomplishments went either unnoticed or unrewarded. The focus was changed from “what is she accomplishing” to “what can I catch her doing wrong.” I cannot work under these conditions and feel deeply concerned for those that I am leaving behind, for it is also unfair to them.

In the future, your business will prosper and grow much quicker, if you will consider the persons upon whom the future of your agency rests. Decisions should be made concerning employing untrained and unorganized family members, with the integrity of the business as your focus.

Sincerely,

Copper Stiletto

What to write?

Do you ever sit and think, what am I gonna write about today? I am rarely at a loss for words but today I am. It has been an exhausting week. Work has been murder, meetings, presentations, employees walking off the job. (don't let me get started on some peoples' work ethics) I am just really over it all! And today is just Thursday, so I have all day to get through tomorrow without seriously injuring someone in this office!!!! I need a vacation and a cigarette. Not in that order!

I would also like a nice stiff drink. In fact......... In approx 1.5 hours, I will be having just that.

Today is a dear friend of mine's birthday. I think we are gonna take him out to dinner and chill at my house tonight. He lives about 2 cities east of here, so he may end up crashing on the couch, but he don't know it yet.

I have no real topic today to try to match a picture to, so today you are just gonna get a few that I seem to connect with, or that interest me for some reason or another. Hope every one has a safe night.