Back in two weeks, I'll miss you!

I feel like you all are my friends. There are a few of you that I "comment" to almost daily. You know who you are. I want each of you to know that in the short time that I have been doing this, I have felt as if there are, at least a few, people that find me interesting. I enjoy reading each of your new posts and will have a lot of catching up and commenting to do when I return.

Don't fear that now that I have exorcised my life of the Lil' Heifer, that I will no longer have fuel for my blog! One thing I can promise you is that my life, no matter where or how I live it, will be interesting.

The only constant is change.

I really will miss you guys. I'll be back soon. Take care and be blessed!





Copper

The reply to my resignation

I want everyone to know that I did decide to go the professional route with my resignation letter. Basically it says this:

XXXX,

I apologize for the informal nature of this, but I felt it was the best way to reach you. I am submitting my resignation from XXXXXX. I feel that it is best for everyone involved and I have accepted a position elsewhere. Please find attached a copy of my actual resignation letter. I will also place resignations from each of the advisory boards in your box. I will be active here until March 26th. I will accept my PDO time paid out and added to my final payroll check.

I will be more than happy to assist you in re-assignment of my duties, if requested. I wish you many blessings and prosperity in the future.

Copper Stiletto

Her response was:

No Problem.

Nothing less nothing more!

I was stunned to say the least. This was Friday afternoon. I had Tracie to check my email on Saturday and was rewarded with this. But here is the BEST PART:

I get here and am told that I need not work out my notice. Leave at the end of the day today and do not return. Clean out your desk, get your shit and get out. This don't really bother me except for two issues:

1. I am missing a weeks worth of pay. This equals bills being pressed to hard dates. I now must have a rummage/garage sale.

2. I will be away from a wireless "hot spot" for approximately 2 weeks. I may be able to squeeze a few posts in here and there, but PLEASE DON"T FORGET ABOUT ME while I am gone.

I don't want to loose my readers, because I will be back.

More later today, but "forget me not"

I'll take that!

Ok, everybody sitting down? Guess what? I came in 2nd in Aussiejourno's Blog Awards.

I am so excited! Impressed! Thrilled! At a loss for words... But I promise it won't last long!

FEATURED ART!

I want to introduce you to a very talented blogger :http://chewy-myblog.blogspot.com/ AKA chewy. Please click the link above or go to my hit list and click her blog: The back of my headboard. After reading my rantings about Lil'Heifer, chewy has made an awesome rendition of my lil'heifer, shes even RED too!! I was so impressed, both that someone found me inspirational and at the artwork itself, that asked chewy if I could feature her here. So here you go folks The Buckin Lil'Heifer in all her glory, go ahead, bask in it!!!!

(LOVE the title!)

Pucker up and...

I have given her ample opportunity to express her sincere apology for all the shit that I have put up with from her daughter, or better yet make Lil' heifer apologize herself! But that isn't gonna happen.

I am debating on sending the original draft of my resignation letter or revising it to continue the professional aura that I try to carry.

I can see benefits to both avenues. But I fear that if I take the path of least conflict, I will look back upon it and wish I had taken my moment of "evil satisfaction" in pissing her off! I was followed today, by the way, by the father (guess this really is a family affair)

to quote eminem "crazy/insane or insane/crazy"

either way, they can KISS MY ASS!!

Bad Moon Rising

Yesterday the shit hit the fan.

Here are the highlights.

Tracie nearly beat the daylights out of "Lil Heifer"

Lil' Heifer was kicked out and her desk cleaned out

Many people shouted

The intended people cried

I was given the opportunity to express to Lil' Heifer EXACTLY what was on my mind

She admitted "watch-dogging" me and reporting insignificant things to her mommy

When prompted, she could give no reason why.

Now the outcome:

I have YET to receive an apology from 'the boss' for her and her daughter's actions, but have received word that she "desperately wants me to stay with the company" I feel that if she wants me that badly, she should feel compelled to contact me in some way. She has my mobile, both e-mails, the office number~everything that she would need to reach me. But still nothing. Hell, she could even text message me for all I care.

BUT I WILL NOT ACCEPT A FORCED APPOLOGY!!

I have received an offer from another corporation in this area that is almost too good to pass up.

She has till the end of business today to approach me in some way, or I will get ghost on her ass real quick!

Stay tuned for updates

A really bad day!

COLBERT, Okla. - A woman looking for a cocaine dealer called a number on her son's cell phone — only to discover she had phoned a police officer, authorities said.

Durant police Lt. Mike Woodruff said the 42-year-old woman called him by accident. His number was on her son's cell phone because he had been arrested previously on drug charges.
"She was looking through her son's cell phone directory and found my number," Woodruff said. "Her son had told her that if she ever needed help with anything to give me a call. I think she misunderstood.
"She thought she was talking to a drug dealer."
Woodruff said he played along and set up a meeting between her and an undercover officer. She and an alleged accomplice were arrested on a drug complaint.

Maybe she will pay more attention to her children next time!!

Do you think she would be mad?

Dear XX XXXX:
Please accept my resignation as Director of Business Development and Quality Coordinator, effective Monday, March 26th.

I feel very fortunate to have been associated with XXXXXX for the last year. My experiences and training have been invaluable, and I leave with many pleasant memories of Tracie, Deborah, Bonita and Tara. I also have take with me, many nightmares and headaches, most of which are attributed to the introduction of your daughter into the office dynamic.

For many months, we labored as a team to get XX operational while maintaining the integrity of XXX. The team effort worked beautifully. I feel that we made many accomplishments and were working towards excellence. I feel that my personal accomplishments went either unnoticed or unrewarded. The focus was changed from “what is she accomplishing” to “what can I catch her doing wrong.” I cannot work under these conditions and feel deeply concerned for those that I am leaving behind, for it is also unfair to them.

In the future, your business will prosper and grow much quicker, if you will consider the persons upon whom the future of your agency rests. Decisions should be made concerning employing untrained and unorganized family members, with the integrity of the business as your focus.

Sincerely,

Copper Stiletto

Man burns genitals in 'Jackass' stunt

Man burns genitals in 'Jackass' stunt:
THE ASSOCIATED PRESS
EAU CLAIRE, Wis. -- Attempts to do a movie stunt landed one man in the hospital with burned genitals and another facing criminal charges. The men were trying to do a stunt from one of the 'Jackass' movies, in which a character lights his genitals on fire.
Jared W. Anderson, 20, suffered serious burns to his hands and genitals, according to the criminal complaint. Randell D. Peterson, 43, who sprayed lighter fluid on Anderson and lit him on fire, was charged with felony battery and first-degree reckless endangerment Tuesday in Eau Claire County Court.
Witnesses told police that Anderson, who was drunk, volunteered to do the stunt Sunday after watching the movie, the complaint said.
According to the complaint:
Anderson pulled down his pants and let Peterson spray him with lighter fluid. When the fire didn't catch, Peterson sprayed more lighter fluid on Anderson, splashing some on his clothing. He tried again to light the fire, catching Anderson's genitals, hands and clothes.
Anderson ran into the bathroom, jumped into the tub and put the flames out. Other guests took him to Luther Hospital, and eventually he was treated at the Regions Hospital Burn Unit in St. Paul, Minn., for second-degree burns.

Anderson told police who were called to the hospital that he didn't want anyone to get in trouble because of the stunt.
Peterson was freed on a $2,000 signature bond. He has a hearing scheduled April 16. If convicted, he faces up to 10 years in prison.
---
Information from: Leader-Telegram, http://www.leadertelegram.com/"


Some people think that 'don't try this at home' is a joke. Guess this fella will spend a little more time sobering up before he agrees to some stupid suggestion next time. I think back to some the silly things that I have let myself do over the years. Most of which were during moments of inebriation.

Thought for the day:

An altered state of mind equals altered common sense.

This is not to say that an altered state is ALWAYS a bad idea, just remove noticeable risk factors before beginning if you run with a group of impressionable friends

~Peace

A Tale of Two Redheads........

(Names have been changed to protect my job)

Ok so i work with this chick who was also given the blessing of having red hair. Now if you know a redhead then you know that we enjoy the attention that it brings and we seldom like to share the spotlight. So you can imagine my dismay when my new secretary turns out to be, not only the bosses daughter, but also a redhead. It was obvious, at this point, that this arrangement would prove to be a challenge. All went well for a few weeks. Training was conducted, orientation, the assignment of duties, etc. Until one morning I arrive at my office to find my door unlocked. I was puzzled. Did I forget to lock my office before I left the building last night? Surely not. I go inside and notice that there is a document on my desk that i swear i left in the bottom drawer. Upon further inspection, I see that there has been a change made to the document and that the file folder it was originally in is nowhere to be found. I pause to collect myself, and go to the front.

At this point I need to decide on a name for our friend. HMMMMM......... how bout lil'heifer?

So I approach lil'heifer's desk and ask about my file. It seems that she felt as if it would be safer in her little hands then locked in my office, and changing the document, well she was just trying to help me out, she says. So over the next few days, things of mine disappear, get moved etc. Keep in mind that this is the boss's daughter and there are only about 7 people who work in this department. So going to the boss is out of the question. So I attempt to extend the olive branch and make friends. A week later guess what I get for my effort:

1. transferred to a new department
2. demoted and stripped of my supervisory responsibilities
3. given a raise!

~~~~~ Now what kind of sense does that make?
Plenty if your enemy calls her mommy (your boss) and says she just cant work with you anymore and your boss has no reason to fire you and truly don't want to loose you as on employee cause you do your job and never call in or complain.
Funny huh?
Pray for me

Eye Candy

This is just some things that I like. For one reason or another. Wanted to share them.

Notice the lack of faces.

It gives them a more surreal feel.

Can you tell that I am in a cryptic mood today?

Chocolate Therapy

I love chocolate. Dark chocolate, not milk or white, but bittersweet dark chocolate is pure ecstasy.

The way it feels smooth and creamy, as it melts slowly in your mouth...............

So, I was so pleased to hear that the is some truth to all the rumors that dark chocolate is actually good for you.

It seems that the dark variety can lower your blood pressure and cholesterol, prevent diabetes, and ever help you de-stress.

There are now pure dark chocolate baths to be enjoyed. The antioxidants in 'dark' rid your skin of free radicals and also help to improve its overall elasticity.

So enjoy, as I am now, some dark chocolate and read some of your favorite blogs. Think of it as therapy and relax.

Watch your mail folks!

Body parts delivered to Michigan home - Yahoo! News


CASCADE TOWNSHIP, Mich. - Two packages containing human body parts — including a liver and part of a head — meant for a medical research lab instead were delivered to a home.

The body parts, sent from China, were mistakenly dropped off Thursday at Franck and Ludivine Larmande's home by a DHL express driver who believed the bubble-wrapped items were pieces to a table.
"My husband started to unwrap one and said, 'This is strange, it looks like a liver,'" Ludivine Larmande said. "He started the second one, but stopped as soon as we saw the ear.
"Something wasn't right. It was scary, and I'm glad I didn't open them."
The couple called Kent County sheriff's deputies, who determined the preserved body parts were for medical research, Lt. Roger Parent said.

Authorities believe 28 more bubble-wrapped human organs and body parts could be dispersed across the country, The Grand Rapids Press reported. Two of five packages headed to the northern Michigan lab broke open, scattering their contents.
"There will definitely be a shock to people if they see these things, but there is no hazard to health," Parent said.
DHL is investigating whether it should have shipped the body parts and how the packages were dispersed, spokesman Robert Mints said.

Ok someone tell me this, if "Authorities" believe that there is 28 more body parts out there just floating around, what the hell are they doing to relocate them? If I had a family member to leave their body to science, I would be so trippin right now. "Who knows where uncle Jon's feet or pancreas is now, but hey, he always loved to travel" Seriously, does it not seem that there should be a way of tracking where the other 'parts' are. Funny how the authorities don't seem to be in much of a rush to find them. Guess they plan to just wait till some old lady has a heart attack when the FexEx truck pulls away.

Wow, just Wow.

I am so proud!!!

http://david-mcmahon.blogspot.com/2007/03/aussiejournos-weekly-blog-awards.html

Yes I have done it! Don't ask me how but I have!! I have been listed on the Top 30 Blogs list!!

David McMahon hosts this list and chooses weekly. Thing is, you don't have to be huge to win. So go and nominate your favorite blogs, nominate me again if you really like me, but either way, check it out! I was so impressed!

What to write?

Do you ever sit and think, what am I gonna write about today? I am rarely at a loss for words but today I am. It has been an exhausting week. Work has been murder, meetings, presentations, employees walking off the job. (don't let me get started on some peoples' work ethics) I am just really over it all! And today is just Thursday, so I have all day to get through tomorrow without seriously injuring someone in this office!!!! I need a vacation and a cigarette. Not in that order!

I would also like a nice stiff drink. In fact......... In approx 1.5 hours, I will be having just that.

Today is a dear friend of mine's birthday. I think we are gonna take him out to dinner and chill at my house tonight. He lives about 2 cities east of here, so he may end up crashing on the couch, but he don't know it yet.

I have no real topic today to try to match a picture to, so today you are just gonna get a few that I seem to connect with, or that interest me for some reason or another. Hope every one has a safe night.

Granny finds grenade in groceries - Yahoo! News

Granny finds grenade in groceries - Yahoo! News

This is just amazing. I truly do not understand how this passed inspection. AND (see how my mind works) what about the actual monetary value of the grenade? Being that old, I am certain that there is a collector that would have paid alot of money for that thing, but alas, it has been detonated, says the report. E-bay would have had a field day!!!

Thong vs. granny panty, a comparison

While the thong has been popular among exotic dancers for awhile, here, fashion historians say the thong—which has been wildly popular for decades in Brazil—was slow to catch on in the U.S. South Americans have had the thong swimsuits for years and that is what drove men insane there. The tourists would come and buy and wear it down there because they couldn't wear them in the U.S.

The breakdown:

A Thong provides more back coverage, with a wide v shaped strip of fabric attached to the center piece that is usually one-half-inch to one-inch thick.

A G-string is actually very stringlike, offering the bare minimum in the way of fabric on your behind and across your back.

A T-Back is made as a thong but has a T shaped back, perfect for wearing with low rise jeans

Granny Panties are anything that leaves those horrifying panty lines on the ass of your adorable Apple Bottom jeans or feminine cut business suit!

Personally, I can't deal with the last one. I'd rather pull a 'britney' and go free!!

Guess sex does sell

French sex Web site seeks to charm investors - Yahoo! News (link)

I just think that this is funny, had to add it.
A sexual awakening is most definitely due in America, but I always considered France to be a bit more advanced in the realm of sexual acceptance.

I would love to be in on the first introduction of something like this in the states.

If everyone would participate in the sex toy revolution, we would need alot less Valium and therapy!!

!!! BUY BRITNEYS HAIR !!!

!!! BUY BRITNEYS HAIR !!!

I have been avoiding this topic. I truly did not want to bring more attention to this situation than the media already has. I wonder what made her do it? Maybe she was jealous of all the attention that the untimely passing of Anna Nicole has generated. I would hope that she would not be that sick and twisted.


These people are really going to make some bank on from this!! I believe that this is her actual hair. What I can't believe is that she needed attention this bad.

I have nothing more to say about this childish act, I just see it as a blessing to the salon owners. Funny how you really can get rich quick!

You can buy me and take me home....(cheap sex)

Today I am ranting. Sorry. Ok here is the source of my irritation. Yesterday I went searching through the pages of a popular site. It seems that the disease of Sexual Self Advertising has infected much of the net these days like it infested MySpace. That was the reason that i left MySpace. Now let me further explain the details of my rant. I am an open minded person. Extremely open minded. In my few years on earth I have seen many things and had many experiences, some of which may even rival the morals of Biblical Jezebel herself, and I have no problems with others celebrating their choice in alternative lifestyles. What confuses me though are these women, no "girls" is more an appropriate descriptor, that openly flaunt themselves for attention. Some are very sexy females, some are not so appealing......... but appeal or no, why give it away!!??

What happened to that 'sensual mystery'? There are no secrets anymore. Now please do not get me wrong. I am in NO WAY a prude, nor am I ashamed of my body or my sexuality. I enjoy a nice thick one the same as any other straight woman, or gay man, (whatever your preference) BUT, and this I promise you folks, the day WILL NOT come where I feel the need or desire to post nude PUBLIC pictures in order to draw attention to myself. If you have such pictures, there is absolutely nothing wrong with that, what there is something wrong with is allowing anyone who clicks your name to know if its time for another bikini wax job, and if you prefer the Classic or the Brazilian. Save these images for members of your inner circle. Not just anyone.

The problem here is that these young women are seriously, whether they admit it or not, looking for acceptance, inclusion and quite possibly love and affection. What they receive for their efforts are a few comments about how sexy they are, and in reality are being made a mockery of. Most of their adoring fans are running the same lines over and over again to other women. Its the same old story ~ players only love you when their playin ~ Some of these ladies have a rude awakening coming. They are building themselves up for a huge let down when they realize that they've been classically used and abused, then traded in for the next best pic.

Never leave home without a thong, and other common fashion mistakes

Anyone can present a stylish fashionable look, as well as anyone can make mistakes, but some fashion mistakes are just unforgivable. Are you in danger of being a fashion victim? Here is a list of 14 tips how to avoid fashion faux pas that are common for women, even for those who are ‘professional’ fashionistas.

1.Do not wear colors that don’t match your skin tone. Wearing the wrong colors will make you look pale and will accentuate your wrinkles. On the other side, your colors will give you a healthier and joyful look.

2.Do not wear fabrics that don’t match.For example winter fabrics tend to be heavier, denser and rougher, while summer fabrics are mostly made of natural fibers, single-layered and airy.They rarely match so, do a selection so you avoid accidents.

3.Do not let your bra and panty lines show. Always wear proper fitting underwear under your exact size clothing to avoid showing the lines. I say never leave home without a thong!

4.Do not get too comfortable with definite clothes. Is more important to dress appropriately for the occasion, than feeling good in your favorite pear of jeans. Don’t fall in love with your accessories.They’re only meant to spice up your wardrobe.The latest styles in handbags, shoes and jewels will bring your look into the current season.

5.Do not wear to much bling (especially if you wear it in areas that you don’t necessarily want to highlight-like a beaded chest sweater for a busty gal). A little goes a long way!

6.Do not buy clothes that don’t fit hoping you’ll loose weight or jackets with sleeves way below the wrist bone.Trust me, you’ll loose your interest quickly after.So, you better not buy them in the first place.(Unless you know how to adjust it yourself).

7.Do not mish-mash your wardrobe. Buying odds and ends on sale really helps you save money, but it may as well kill your personal style. Having a lot of different unmatchable stuff in your closet won’t make you a fashionista (I don’t mean to imply that buying on sale is always a mistake).

8.Do not overdose on a single fabric. Head-to-toe denim or velvet, for example, are ridiculous.
Do not get rid of your most flattering clothing cuts that is best suited to your body shape, when you decide to change your look.

9.Do not wear to much make-up. Makeup overdose creates an aggressive look and accentuates your lines.Try to come up with at least 2 personal makeup styles: a light and simple one for daytime and a bolder one for the evening.

10.Do not wear chipped nails. If you cannot afford a manicure, do it yourself.

11.Don’t wear an outdated hairstyle. Your hairstyle can be a information source for people about your age, social status, education and so on. All these are instinctive presumptions (not necessarily accurate).Visit your hairdresser on regular bases so you can notice if he/she has gotten you stuck in typical haircuts. Change your hairstylist if necessary.

12.Don’t wear mismatched shoes. Your shoes must match with your look and your outfit.
Don’t wear nylons that don’t match your shoes, pants or skirt. Do not wear nylons with sandals (if you’re not comfortable doing that try to find a super sheer, nude color, so it will look like you’re not wearing any).

I'm supposed to wear what?

News Bizarre - weird, wacky, crazy news and photos Chron.com - Houston Chronicle

I admit it, I am a slave to fashion. The new 4inch peep-toe black patent, on every ones feet, stilettos came out, what did I do? Run straight out and by not only the must have black pair but a lipstick red pair too. I love the new sweater coats that are on all the models' this winter, but I have to say that once I viewed this collection of frocks and lace, I had to get a real grip on myself and fashion reality.

I have for many years attempted to stay as close to the cutting edge of fashion as my purse and geographical location would allow me. (Some things are just too pricey, or a little risque for here) I have bought fashion magazines, watched trendy television shows regularly and just stayed on top in general. I was even willing to splurge for the couture' styles when I could find them.

But I know realize that there are some designs that are never meant to leave the runway.

I have pasted a couple of my favorite "what is that???" designs and please click the link above to see more of what I am talking about

Porn star seeks fame with clothes on - Yahoo! News

Porn star seeks fame with clothes on - Yahoo! News


Has anyone read this? It seems that good ole Ron Jeremy wants to be a REAL actor now. I guess after sleeping with almost every porn chick from brazillian to bushy, he's bored with the "daily grind" and ready to move on to something else!

Well good luck Jeremy, but I have to say that I say you in BOONDOCK SAINTS this weekend and you look a little strange with your clothes on!!

Inspiration for today.......

In honor of Black History Month, here are some inspiring quotes from Martin Luther King Jr.

In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.

Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter.

We must learn to live together as brothers or perish together as fools.

I submit to you that if a man hasn't discovered something he will die for, he isn't fit to live.

Nothing in all the world is more dangerous than sincere ignorance and conscientious stupidity.

The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy.

Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase.

We have guided missiles and misguided men.

We may have all come on different ships, but we're in the same boat now.

Foot Fetish?

I want someone to see this! I am slightly trippin! I checked my e-mail this morning and found this:

From: XXXX_XX
Subject: shoe "chat"?
Message: Hi!!Saw your response to the shoe dangling question, and would love to talk more about it with you if you're interested? Please email me either way at XXXX_XXXX@XXXXX.com...thanks!!

Now to put this into context, you need to know the background information. I occasionally participate in a forum where users ask just about any type of question and then other users try to answer with their best. So a few months ago I answered this silly little question, and thought it was over . So all of the sudden I get the above message. Here is the question:

Do you dangle your shoes?
Girls: When you are sitting with your legs crossed, do you ever let the heel of your shoes slip off and dangle your shoe on the end of your toes? Does your shoe ever fall off while doing this? It's sexy when a girl does this

And my answer:

Yea it happens, but usually by accident, or if i am irritated i might make the backs bounce with my foot, slides are notorious for it. cute question.

So what is the deal with this guy? Does he want to suck my toes?
HMMMM, too bad its a freaky stranger ;)

Holy Matri- what the hell?

OK an odd ranting today. Just got off the phone with a male friend that has been very close to me for years now......... or rather, I was laboring under the delusions that he was. We talk about 3 times a week and have a great time. I have never met someone that makes me laugh like he does. We have engaged in some sexual play on occasion, but he has always been with this female, ever since we met, and he has a child with her. Well, see Mr. X and I had always joked that we would be perfect together, both knowing that it was not going ever materialize, so we were content being basically friends.

So last night I had another close friend to come by. As we were talking she says, "So what do you think about XXXXX and XXXXXXX getting engaged, is he excited?" Oh course I play it off like I already knew, but inside I'm like what the hell? I just talked to him yesterday, and many times since Christmas which is when he popped the big question.

So now I have the conundrum of deciding how to approach this. I am happy for him and truly wish the very best for their future, I just feel like he should have told me by now. Not let me find out by second party, 2 months later! I don't have many friends in this world at all and now I feel as if I was never a true friend, just another bitch to try to stick it to, before the Big Day!!

I am stunned, confused and even more lonely than before................Pray for me

Copper

Eternal Embrace

I was strangely touched by this way that these two truly cared for each other. It makes me wonder what the circumstances of their death was. I can only pray for a man to love me this deeply. (5000 year old archaeological find pic via AP)

“Find a man who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the man who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky his is to have you.... The one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her.'”

One of the hardest things in life is watching the person you love, love someone else.”

“It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone - but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.”

“You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel.”

“No man is happy without a delusion of some kind. Delusions are as necessary to our happiness as realities.”

“Though our feelings come and go, God’s love for us does not.”

You can be lonely, even if you are not alone

Blue, that's my Valentine's Day color. Guess everyone has complaints, guess I should feel lucky to have a man to spend that day with. A man that wants to marry me even. But what if I don't want to marry him? What if I have known for at least a year now that its so completely over, that I am wasting my time. That while I am wasting my time, what if my prince gets tired of waiting for me and settles for someone else? Sounds like I should just move on, huh? After 6 years, it difficult. But I KNOW that he is not the right one for me. I can feel it. I am sick to death of being mentally and occasionally physically abused.

Oh now he's never broken any bones or left bruises where clothing would not cover, he's too smart for that. But I can handle the physical, I am a wildcat when need be, and I will go to blows with him when necessary, but he's a wrestler by nature and if he gets me off my feet is over, I don't have the body weight to overpower him. So whatever, bruises will eventually fade.

Its the mental scars that wont..............

Bitch, cunt, whore, slut. You disgust me, you make me miserable. Fuck you, you ain't shit. Get the fuck outta my face or I'll choke you you fuckin white whore. This is daily. Of, course he apologizes, but so what.

Oh and simply for background information, I am the Administrator of a corporation that I single handed built from a blank paper, with only financial support from the owner. I used to be a model, before I became a mother (but don't get it twisted, i'm still bangin) And I pay ALL the bills, he doesn't have a job. AND during our relationship he chose to sleep with his friend and now has a baby by her. Sweet huh?

I met a man during the course of this ill fated relationship.He's a true devoted Christian man. He is smooth and hard all at the same time. His skin is so dark and rich, like I could lick every inch ad not be satisfied. I want him for my own, but I will probably never be able to make that claim. I have looked all over the net to see if he has a blog (not a stalker, just curious, I like voyeurism)

But he is still experiencing life, and a spirit like his could never be tied down against its will. It would be unnatural.

I just long so badly for that type of man. Someone to nurture me, a strong sexy black man who wants me for who and what I am. I no longer wish to be taken advantage of. I think that its sick that alot of interraial relationships consist of the white girl being used and abused. I personally know many couples that are of mixed race and each person is respected and cherished by their mate. Thats what I want!!!

I can only hope that it comes to me before its too late!!

Rest in Peace Anna Nicole

Sexy and Strong! An inspiration to single mothers! It pains me to think of her beautiful daughter and how Howard K must be feeling.........

She was hated and ridiculed, joked about and impersonated. She married for love and was mistreated for it. And yes i said LOVE, that old man treated her with respect, doted upon her, protected her and made her feel special. Not just as "just another dancer". And by the way, for anyone who even shapes their mouth to say anything about exotic dancers, you don't know shit if you think that any single mom would let their child starve when their was something that could be done about it!! So lay off. Oh, and for everyone who says that she was an addict. Well tell me someone who can wake up in the bed next to her dead son, three days after having a baby, and not take drugs, either legal or illegal.

So I am sad today. I am sad for all her critics because they will never understand how truly unique she was. She perservered through it all, and her untimely death will only serve to immoralize her........... Something that she deserves. I am sad because i fear that her daughter will be raised by people who will not teach her about the person that her mother truly was and that up until the last few days of her life, she fought to stop a paternity test that might, and probably will now, change the childs life forever.

I miss you Anna Nicole, and the world will never be the same

Hista-who? Can I get meds for that??

You May Be a Bit Histrionic...

Dramatic and over the top, you crave attention. And you'll do anything it takes to get noticed. You love to be seductive, even when it's inappropriate. If you're ignored, you're easily hurt ... and act out even more!

What Personality Disorder Are You?

The Brazilian

Your Sexy Brazilian Name is:

Renata Mendes

What's Your Sexy Brazilian Name?

I always liked these!!

What are you

You Are a Bloody Mary

You're a fairly serious drinker, who's experimented a lot with different drinks. You're a drunk, but a stable drunk. You don't ever let your drinking get out of control.

What Mixed Drink Are You?

Welcome, come join me...............

I would assume that at this point I should state what my blog will be about. Basically it will be yet another depository of everyday rantings. Seems that is the basis of most blogs, but given the state of affairs in the US, the hunger and poverty, minimum wage and medicare there IS alot to rant about .

We each have our everyday lives. Each us face stress, hardships and happiness. I am one of you. I am a struggling mother, trying to hold it down for my kids. I am a determined business woman who WILL succeed! I am a CHRISTIAN lady!

We are all here to survive, thats the point. We release out frustrations through words and images. I see things that I like, I share them here. I hope you will do the same for me! Be my friend, my shoulder to cry on. We will all learn something. We will make it.

WE SHALL OVERCOME!! (lbj/1965)

Walk with me a while..........................
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